So Tired,
Now Playing: Once in a Lifetime by the Talking Heads (just got this from napster & am listening to it ad nauseum!)
Topic: History
You can ask my mother at any given time of day or night, any day of the year how she is & she will always say the same thing: 'Tired' I'm sitting here at the computer after having been up til after 2 am last night, & getting up at 10 which is a pretty respectable wake up time if you ask me! falling asleep over the computer, listening to Styx is not the best way to wake up either, I'd be better served with Godsmack or Audioslave really. But since I've got to go take a bath pretty soon I'm not going to sweat it too much, too much fresh air for me today I guess, which is really pathetic since I was outside for only about 45 minutes trying to mow the lawn, it was too cold & it was raining out there too, I looked at the garden space which is dug up but needs to be tilled with the small tiller now, (I didn't know it but there's different grades of tilling, what we dealt with last year was a rough till, I smoothed it out & hoe'd it up into raised beds with out breaking the soil apart much.) the guy who tilled it is supposed to come back & finish. I was expecting about $50. bucks, it cost 15, He showed up to finish on Thursday & now I'm working on making raised beds, I'm considering doing structured raised beds with wood, there's so much clay out there, I can really tell the difference between where I gardened last year & where the guy expanded the size of the garden. the part which hasn't been used before & had dirt mixed in to loosen the clay is like pottery clay, when you sink a shovel into it it stays right in the shape of the shovel. I have to mix more good dirt in to make that clay loosen up, more money to spend! arrgh! if I made raised beds structured I could really control the quality of the dirt, I just worry about the dirt getting sour, I like the idea of structure because I wouldn't have to have it tilled every year & I could eventually have stone paths or something between them rather than just dirt which will get weedy.
I've always tried not to whine about being tired like my mother does, I often tell Lois who is an Aquarius like both my mother & my grandmother that she can be like one or the other, my mother has her life set in stone, she does a, b & c each & every day & god forbid someone or something interfere with when she's supposed to do any of those things, there's no room for deviation from her plan & change upsets her terribly.
My grandmother takes things as they come, she tells me my mother used to get upset at her as a child because she'd ask every morning what they were having for dinner & my grandmother never knew, she waited until it was nearly time to make dinner before making that decision.
As an illustration of how they're at polar opposites on this one time just before my Ex & I called it quits we decided on thursday night to go for an extended weekend visit to Mass, I called my grandmother & asked her if she could stand to have us visit for 2 days & stay at her place with her. She said 'sure, great when will you be here? I can't wait to see you all!'
When I called my Mother & asked her the same thing (we stayed 2 nights with each & 1 with friends) she said 'I don't know, is there anywhere else you could stay?' & when I said there really wasn't I got, 'well, I suppose you can stay but you'll have to sleep on the floor'
My Mother is actually, in spite of this a pretty cool person in many other areas, she's very liberal & is interested in reincarnation, ghosts etc. we get along very well (now that I'm an adult)
My Grandmother & I get along well too, we talk more about the past, the kids & politics but we do talk & she is almost as liberal as my Mother.
I should've written this last week, with mothers day & all, but here it is coming out now!